‘A strange vanity’

Part 5 of this series focuses on John Newton, a British slave trafficker and later a minister who wrote ‘Amazing Grace.’

This special Stillness of Heart series explores the Morgan Library & Museum’s fascinating exhibit, “The Diary: Three Centuries of Private Lives.”

Part 5 focuses on John Newton, a British slave trafficker and later a minister who wrote “Amazing Grace.” Throughout his adult life, he struggled with his religious faith and with his views on slavery, and the diary captured in daily detail the long, tumultuous spiritual journey he made. In the end, as the exhibit essay explains, Newton simply hoped that someday he “would serve as inspiration to others.”

“I have been reading what I have recorded of my experience in the last year – a strange vanity. I find myself condemn’d in every page[.] But the Lord is good, O how gracious! How wonderfully has he born with my repeated backslidings! And yet the thought but faintly affects. What I can I will – Lord I am not able to praise thee, accept the desire, which I trust is thine own gift – deliver me from that pride, impurity & self seeking, which so fatally interrupt my progress.”

Examine images of the extraordinary diary and listen to the museum’s audio guide here.

Entries in this series:
Part 1: Introduction to the exhibit and Charlotte Brontë
Part 2: Frances Eliza Grenfell
Part 3: Sophia and Nathaniel Hawthorne
Part 4: Paul Horgan
Part 5: John Newton
Part 6: Mary Ann and Septimus Palairet
Part 7: Walter Scott
Part 8: Bartholomew Sharpe
Part 9: Tennessee Williams
Part 10: John Ruskin

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1. Whither astronauts? Corps shrinks as shuttles stop
By Marcia Dunn | Associated Press | July 17
“NASA’s mighty astronaut corps has become a shadow of what it once was. And it’s only going to get smaller.”

2. The 7 Strangest Asteroids in the Solar System
By Adam Hadhazy | Space.com | July 14
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3. Savoring History Through Its Smells
Big Think | July 17
“[S]everal organizations want to preserve the scents of today and revive the ones of yesterday.”

4. Eric Foner on the Evolution of Liberalism
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“The historian chooses five books illustrating how concepts of American liberalism have changed over the past 50 years, and tells us about the tension that lies at the heart of liberalism today.”

5. Voyeurism, Exposed
By Sandra Phillips and Mark Murrmann | Mother Jones | June 2011
“In the age of Weinergate, we are all lookers and watchers.”

6. Online reputation will shape our lives more and more
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“Think of it as a new version of your credit score. And in the near future, your digital reputation could affect your life even more than that score.”

7. Honey bee hive removed from East Austin house
By Farzad Mashhood | Austin American-Statesman | July 15
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8. Chilean miners face up to a strange new world
By Angus MacQueen | The Guardian | July 17
“The rescue of 33 miners from Chile’s San José mine after 69 days trapped underground was a triumph shared with the whole world. But the transition back to normality is proving difficult for both the men and their families”

9. John Glenn: A Journey
NASA
An interactive special report on the astronaut and legislator.

10. The space shuttle
Witness :: BBC News | July 8
“It is more than 30 years since the launch of the first space shuttle. Milton Silveira has been involved in the programme since the very beginning – long before the first shuttle ever took off.”

Homo universalis

One of my guiding principles is that we’re all capable of self-improvement at any age, particularly intellectual self-improvement. Sometimes that faith is the only thing that enables me to sleep through the night and get out of bed in the morning.

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That’s Latin for “universal man” or “man of the world,” if Wikipedia can be relied on for a proper translation.

I glide through a small, comfortable life — trying not to bother anyone, trying to be pleasant and polite, non-judgmental and sympathetic, charming and humble, trying to be intellectually honest and self-aware of my limits and flaws, every day edging closer to fulfilling all my ambitions.

One of my guiding principles is that we’re all capable of self-improvement at any age, particularly intellectual self-improvement. Sometimes that faith is the only thing that enables me to sleep through the night and get out of bed in the morning. I’ve always been blessed with a hunger for knowledge, a curiosity that often flares into full-blown passion for new arenas of experience, a curiosity perhaps sparked by a bittersweet frustration that I don’t know as much about literature, science, mathematics, history and culture as I think I should.

Perhaps that’s why I’ve always embraced wholeheartedly people like Theodore Roosevelt and Michelangelo, those who lived their lives desperately hungry for more of the world to absorb into their hearts and minds, constantly reaching out to make more of it their own.

A friend once called me a polymath. Other friends have called me a Renaissance man. I politely laughed off both compliments. I’m certainly no genius. I’d hardly consider myself intelligent, compared to the accomplishments and capabilities of the other men and women in my life.

As I understand it, polymaths and Renaissance men and women possess an immensity of talent to complement that fiery passion to achieve great things in multiple fields, professions, etc. As my quiet life sadly illustrates — in which I’ve been not much more than a minor writer, historian, editor, painter and arts critic — I have very much of the latter and very little of the former.

Perhaps later life will prove otherwise, as I’m slowly exploring how to become a proper pianist, an amateur boxer, an effective apiarist and gardener, an expert numismatist and philatelist, a stellar professor of American Civil War and Roman and Spanish imperial history, a sympathetic and effective psychologist, an historical novelist, a decent speaker, writer and translator of Spanish and Latin, and a less-than-atrocious golfer, photographer, and salsa dancer. My mandate is to be more than a simple-minded, well-meaning hobbyist.

But if none of that works out, perhaps this particular man of the world will be content being someone who’s fun to spend time with, whose passion for history is inspiring, whose writing makes the heart soar, who’s always interesting, always relaxing, always enriching. Always happy.

I’d settle for that last one, above and beyond all the rest.

Recommended reading / viewing / listening

America’s eternal connection to France … Emmy’s snubbing of ‘Treme’ … The debt ceiling debate … Print out some solar panels … The Afghan power vacuum.

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1. Did CIA’s Fake Vaccine Drive Undermine Global Health Efforts?
The Takeaway | July 13
“Reports are emerging that the C.I.A. used a fake vaccination drive in Pakistan to gather intelligence on the whereabouts of Osama bin Laden, prior to the May 1 raid where the Al Qaida leader was killed.”

2. Where Would Hemingway Go?
Room for Debate :: The New York Times | July 13
“Which city is the dynamic center in Europe?”

3. What It Means: the Debt Ceiling and You
By Robert Ray | Associated Press | July 13
“If you think the last few days have been tumultuous for markets, just watch as August 2 approaches. The United States faces a trove of issues if the debt ceiling isn’t raised.”

4. Hit ‘Print’ for Solar Panels
Egocentric :: Time | July 13
“According to a paper published in the journal Advanced Materials, it’s now possible to print photovoltaic cells on paper almost as you would a document — and almost as cheaply too.”

5. The Navy’s Green Devices: Coming to a Store Near You?
By Lucy Flood | The Atlantic | July 11
“As the military commits itself to going green, it’s supporting innovations that could ultimately help American consumers save energy”

6. ‘Treme,’ a winning show, suffers Emmy neglect
By Lynette Rice | Inside TV :: Entertainment Weekly | July 14
“‘Treme’ is easily among the best drama series on the air, and takes a backseat to no show for the breadth and excellence of its cast. One more thing that makes ‘Treme’ praiseworthy: its uniqueness.”

7. Egypt: How to build a camp in Tahrir Square
By Jon Jensen | The Casbah :: GlobalPost | July 14
“A day in the life of Cairo’s Tahrir Square sit-in – which is now entering its seventh day.”

8. Vive la Similarité
By David McCullough | The New York Times | July 13
“Though we will probably never see a Bastille Day when French flags fly along Main Street and strains of ‘La Marseillaise’ fill the airwaves, July 14 would not go so largely unobserved here were we better served by memory. For the ties that bind America and France are more important and infinitely more interesting than most of us know.”

9. Afghanistan’s dangerous power vacuum
By Ben Brody | GlobalPost | July 14
“The most powerful man in Kandahar is gone. But Afghans say their real worry is the departure of US troops.”

10. Prince Charles and Princess Diana in the USA
Witness :: BBC News | July 5
“In 1985 the Royal couple made their first joint visit to America. The highlight of the tour was a gala dinner at the White House where the young Princess danced with John Travolta.”

TUNES

Tonight I’m spending some time with the blues, specifically with the Texas Blues Café. Check out the line-up and then listen here.

1. Bluessmyth — Rosemary’s Blues
2. Michael K’s Rumble Pack — Black Cadillac
3. Los Lonely Boys — Dime Mi Amor
4. Delbert McClinton — Standing On Shaky Ground
5. Billy Joe Shaver & Son Eddy — Step On Up
6. Susan Tedeschi — Voodoo Woman
7. Delta Moon — Lap Dog
8. Too Slim & The Taildraggers — The Fortune Teller
9. Bleu Edmondson — 50 Dollars & A Flask Of Crown
10. Carolyn Wonderland — Misunderstood
11. Frank Gomez — In The Moon Light
12. Allan Haynes — Here In The Dark
13. Jewel — Sweet Home Alabama

‘Like a chess game’

The opening of my stories always contain a hint of that deep emotion, like dark clouds building far in the distance, a hint of chill in a warm summer breeze, a half-second of hesitation before a forbidden kiss.

The blog i09 recently explained seven different ways to begin a short story. “A short story is like a chess game,” writer Charlie Jane Anders explained. “The opening is a huge part of whether you win or lose.”

In most of my short story writing, I tend to go with “the mystifier.” I like to open suddenly on a seemingly innocuous moment of a person’s existence, the first few seconds of a new era of someone’s life, or perhaps the moment for us to witness when everything changes forever. The first kiss. That moment when one first senses that love has died. The dawn of someone’s last day on earth.

As I begin to write a story, I’m often already deeply moved by what I know is coming, and the opening of my stories always contain a hint of that deep emotion, like dark clouds building far in the distance, a hint of chill in a warm summer breeze, a half-second of hesitation before a forbidden kiss.

Read the blog entry from i09 here.

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NASA’s lost generation … the ‘Highway of Tears’ … Netflix jacks up rates … a John Adams memorial … the discovery of Neptune.

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1. The Last Pilots
By Chris Jones | Esquire | July 11
“Despite the end of the shuttle, NASA still has astronauts — and plans on hiring more. But for the first time in its history, they won’t be flying anywhere.”

2. ‘Dozens’ of Women Vanish From Canadian Wilderness
By Mark Russell | Newser | July 11
“So many women have disappeared along the 837-mile stretch of Highway 16 that cuts through the Rocky Mountains in British Columbia that people have started calling it ‘The Highway of Tears. …’ ”

3. Netflix raises rates, irks subscribers
Associated Press | July 13
“Netflix has provoked the ire of some of its 23 million subscribers by raising its prices by as much as 60 percent for those who want to rent DVDs by mail and watch video on the Internet.”

4. John Adams Deserves a Monument in Washington
By Peter Roff | U.S. News & World Report | July 11
“Adams, the second president of the United States, was a seminal figure in the American struggle for independence. Without him it is highly unlikely that the revolution would have unfolded as it did.”

5. US Army may give soldiers smartphones
GlobalPost | July 13
“The phones would be used to send text message updates about their surroundings, send photographs with GPS location, look at maps and fill out reports.”

6. Neptune Discovered a Year Ago Today*
By Ker Than | National Geographic | July 12
“*One Neptunian year, that is, which is about 165 Earth years long.”

7. Electric Earth
OurAmazingPlanet | May 24
An amazing slideshow of lightning from all over the world.

8. Not Satisfied, Protesters Return to Tahrir Square
By Anthony Shadid | The New York Times | July 12
“Egypt is a turbulent place these days, as is the Arab world it once led. Defiant, festive and messy scenes unfold at night in a square that is at once a place and an idea. Revolutions are about expectations, and everywhere in Egypt, it seems, expectations … have not been met.”

9. Bridge on the River Kwai
Secrets of the Dead :: PBS | June 26, 2008
“After 14 grueling months of exhaustion and malnourishment, disease, bone-deep leg ulcers, and the loss of 100,000 lives, the POWs and laborers completed the 260-mile ‘Death Railway.’ ”

10. Camaron – Flamenco Legend
Witness :: BBC News | June 30
“Flamenco singing was dwindling in popularity in Spain until the appearance of Camaron de la Isla. Thousands lined the streets at his funeral in Andalucia in 1992.”

‘To be ready to die’

Part 4 of this series focuses on Paul Horgan, a middle-aged novelist who in the summer of 1968 shared Aspen, Colo., with hippies, rich tourists, and others from whom he felt wearily disconnected.

This special Stillness of Heart series explores the Morgan Library & Museum’s fascinating exhibit, “The Diary: Three Centuries of Private Lives.”

Part 4 focuses on Paul Horgan, a middle-aged novelist who in the summer of 1968 shared Aspen, Colo., with hippies, rich tourists, and others from whom he felt wearily disconnected. Nevertheless, he took comfort and inspiration from his perch as a keen observer of the details that define and enrich daily life.

“I remember once being sent to bed physically ill because I could not be a part of the off-hand dinner conversation of a couple — young, beautiful, articulate — at the next table, in a hotel restaurant in Corpus Christi, Texas. To be ready to die because a beautiful young man and a beautiful girl were not known to me, or did not want me with them!”

Examine images of Horgan’s fascinating diary and learn more about him here.

Entries in this series:
Part 1: Introduction to the exhibit and Charlotte Brontë
Part 2: Frances Eliza Grenfell
Part 3: Sophia and Nathaniel Hawthorne
Part 4: Paul Horgan
Part 5: John Newton
Part 6: Mary Ann and Septimus Palairet
Part 7: Walter Scott
Part 8: Bartholomew Sharpe
Part 9: Tennessee Williams
Part 10: John Ruskin

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A plan for a modern Army … E.B. White and ‘Charlotte’s Web’ … Tacitus and Germania … Lenny Kravitz answers questions … a Japanese super submarine.

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1. Venezuelans ponder life without Chavez
By Jack Chang | Associated Press | July 6
“Talk about [President Hugo] Chavez’s future is buzzing across [capital city Caracas], as newspapers, radio programs and conversations on the street weigh questions of succession and the fate of Chavez’s socialist-inspired Bolivarian Revolution.”

2. Women re-enact Civil War as men, quite accurately
By David Dishneau | Associated Press | July 6
“A century and a half ago, women weren’t allowed into military service; masquerading as men was the only way in for those who weren’t satisfied with supporting the war effort from home or following their husbands’ military units around.”

3. An interview with Ollanta Humala, Peru’s president-elect
By Lally Weymouth | The Washington Post | July 8
“Peru has changed. It is no longer the Peru of 2005. It is the Peru of 2011, and it is different from when I campaigned in 2005. Obviously, we politicians have to adapt to these changes.”

4. Japanese SuperSub
Secrets of the Dead :: PBS
“With missions to attack U.S. cities and blow up the Panama Canal, the aircraft carrier submarine had the potential to change the course of the war in the Pacific.”

5. Q&A: Lenny Kravitz
By Matt Hendrickson | Details | August 2011
“After more than two decades, Lenny Kravitz, 47, hasn’t shed the trappings of rock stardom — even if it’s his daughter who’s wearing the boas now.”

6. The Idea of Germany, From Tacitus to Hitler
By Cullen Murphy | New York Times Book Review | June 10
“As described by the Roman historian Tacitus, three Roman legions led by Quinctilius Varus had crossed the Rhine from Gaul, intent on incorporating the vast area known as Germania into the empire. They were ambushed and annihilated by German tribes under the command of a warrior named Arminius. It was one of the worst military disasters the Romans ever suffered.”

7. Army releases modernization plan
By Brian Gebhart | Army.mil | July 7
“The goal of the Strategy to Equip the Army in the 21st century is to develop and provide an affordable and versatile mix of the best equipment available to Soldiers and units to succeed in current and future military operations.”

8. How E.B. White Wove Charlotte’s Webb
By Chloe Schama | Smithsonian.com | June 3
“A new book explores how the author of the beloved children’s book was inspired by his love for nature and animals.”

9. Is Sex Dead?
By Tom Matlack | The Good Men Project | July 10
“I keep hearing about the complex calculus of how and when these guys might get some action, when it will be withheld, and the rules of passionate engagement for married men in 2011.”

10. Ron Kovic – Ex US Marine and peace activist
Witness :: BBC News | July 4
“Alan Johnston talks to the former US Marine and peace activist Ron Kovic about two moments that changed his life forever – one on the battlefield, and one at anti-war protest in Washington.”

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Coverage of the Caylee case … Searching for Cleopatra … Diseases that plagued George Washington … A long Arab summer … Remembering the Piper Alpha explosion.

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1. Caylee & Brisenia: Why the Difference in Coverage?
By Victor Landa | NewsTaco | July 6
“When was the last time you heard Nancy Grace rail obnoxiously from the television screen about the murder of Brisenia Flores?”

2. The Search for Cleopatra
By Chip Brown | National Geographic | July 2011
“Archaeologists search for the true face — and the burial place — of the ‘world’s first celebrity.’ ”

3. Researcher IDs Remains Of Unknown Civil War Soldier
By Edgar Treiguts | NPR | July 4
“Hundreds of thousands of soldiers died on Civil War battlefields. Many of the fallen were moved and buried in national cemeteries. But some lie in unmarked graves on the fields where they died. Edgar Treiguts of Georgia Public Broadcasting brings us this story on an effort to identify one soldier. ”

4. Divorce ceremonies pick up in Japan after disaster
Reuters | July 4
“Ceremonies to celebrate divorces have gained momentum in Japan after the massive March earthquake and tsunami, followed by an ongoing nuclear crisis, caused unhappy couples to reassess their lives.”

5. The 9 Deadly Diseases That Plagued George Washington
By Jason Kane | The Rundown :: PBS NewsHour | July 4
“Tuberculosis. Malaria. Smallpox. Dysentery. Some of the deadliest ailments of the 18th century attacked him early and often.”

6. Entrepreneur’s plan converts wind into jobs
By Mike D. Smith | Corpus Christi Caller-Times | July 4
“Big. Loud. Unsightly. Those are some of the negatives hurled out about the turbines powering the wind energy industry. … Byron Loftin, chief executive officer of 3eWerks Inc. … not only thinks he’s found the product that quells all those worries, but he said in a few years he will have a local facility building them.”

7. The Arab Spring Has Given Way to a Long, Hot Summer
By Richard Haass | Council on Foreign Relations | July 6
“Looked at more broadly, the stalling of the Arab spring has both revealed and widened the breach between the US and Saudi Arabia.”

8. Military Suicide Condolence Letters: White House Lifts Ban
Associated Press and the Hiuffington Post | July 6
“The White House says that families of service members who commit suicide while deployed abroad are now getting condolence letters from the president just like families of troops who die in other ways.”

9. Platon and the many faces of world power
By Emily Kasriel | The Guardian | July 6
“Photographer Platon’s new collection of images, ‘Power,’ published by Chronicle Books, provides glimpses of what lies behind world leaders’ carefully constructed auras”

10. Piper Alpha
Witness :: BBC News | July 6
“We hear from a survivor from the 1988 Piper Alpha oil rig disaster that killed 167 people.”

‘Happiness has no succession of events’

Part 3 in this series focuses on Sophia and Nathaniel Hawthorne, newlyweds who co-authored a diary celebrating their new lives together.

This special Stillness of Heart series explores the Morgan Library & Museum’s fascinating exhibit, “The Diary: Three Centuries of Private Lives.”

Part 3 focuses on Sophia and Nathaniel Hawthorne, newlyweds who co-authored a diary celebrating their new lives together.

“Happiness has no succession of events; because it is a part of eternity, and we have been living in eternity, ever since we came to this old Manse. Like Enoch, we seem to have been translated to the other state of being, without having passed through death.”

Examine images of their heart-swelling diary and listen to the museum’s audio guide here.

Entries in this series:
Part 1: Introduction to the exhibit and Charlotte Brontë
Part 2: Frances Eliza Grenfell
Part 3: Sophia and Nathaniel Hawthorne
Part 4: Paul Horgan
Part 5: John Newton
Part 6: Mary Ann and Septimus Palairet
Part 7: Walter Scott
Part 8: Bartholomew Sharpe
Part 9: Tennessee Williams
Part 10: John Ruskin

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